KOWAI!!



From now on I might suddenly have some
pictures here ^^ And that is chibi mini me coz
I dont do my hair like that anymore.keke.

 Today I felt mega sick just before maths (Woohoo) and so i go to the sick bay. AND DUDE!! I lie there staring at a security camera!! But ended up falling asleep. When I woke up there were like these two gnomes staring at me. I was like WTF!!! Dude, Cheltenham Sick Bay is much scarier than Eastwood P.S. The Office Lady person was like I'll wake you up at 1:00pm and than at 1:15pm I walk up to her coz I was feeling better, she goes "whoops I forgot."
For eng I had to draw a dragon as a title page, I ask my mum how bad/good it is and she goes "it looks like a dog." Then I got 9/10 and so for those who know me i would go 'In your face!' to my mum saying that even my teacher notices that it looks like a dragon not a dog.
IN a previous post I mentioned how there was someone that always made me angry. Well, now she's alright. She doesn't piss me off anymore but NOW!! There's someone else who pisses me off!! And she USE to be a childhood friend....Yeah, I definately need anger management but STILL!!! SHE"S SUCH A JERK!!

Jaa

Anger Management

Well, as you can see on the title you can probably tell whats going on. Some people that i know piss me off so much that i like yeah....go full on angry. That is why I have a giant bruise on my fist for the third time in a row so far.
I find it hilarious coz my friend Rachel was always like " YOu definately need anger Mangement" since primary to now. But it is better than cuttig myself right? Tsk. I come from a violet family background anywayz.
Koraa!! Some people are such idiotic bastards!! I'm full on pissed at the moment but I already have a bruise so i'll probably start biting myself or something.

Jaa

Luna Park

Today my grade went to Luna Park for .....some maths excursion??! Retarded neh? But we did get to go on the rides and such. The first on was this spiny thing...well basically all the rides were spiny but like the 'Rotor' or something. IT was hilarious coz when the ground lowered my friend was screaming for the ground, sort of like this. "OMG!!! OMG!!! WHERE"S THE GROUND!!! I LIKE THE GROUND!! COME BACK!!It was quite akward being next to her at the moment.
 The the rest of the group left since they didn't go on that ride and THAT friend started complaining so hilariously.SHe was like "OMG! why didn't they wait?! are we not their friends?! Their such assholes" HIlarious moment I tell you.
There also this ride called the 'Ranger,' which is a 360 degree spinning ship. For once I was actually freaked out when we were just at the top 180 degree and not coming down. My head was like WTF!! GO DOWN!! GO DOWNNN!!! DON"T BREAK!! but afterwards if got pretty lame coz it was predicable.
 My friend Valerie was laughing the entire moment when people screamed. Akward~
Oh yeah! there was this whatcha call it ride...eto...ah! Souda!! 'Tango Train'. It was akward because just a moment ago i bought chips and started eating a little. THEN she goes "I wanna go on that! Hurry!!" and she made me go on a ride with a fork still on mouth!! KORAAAA!!

Well, result of a fun day wwere just three bruises, two cuts and two very painful legs. I fell over just coz i needed the bathroom!!

Typical weekends

Just normal saturday and sunday studying like shit. Since my brother is doing horribly at the moment my parents keep making me do work. I have my japanese work-book due on wednesday. MInd you its thick!! I hardly do any in class so I had to do it in the weekends. I'm not sure if im happy at the moment that im 3/4 done or sad that im only 3/4 done. My eyes and head hurts...

never ending darkness

It is now that I realise my 'Friends' really are out of reach. They've turned their backs on me, just like they  promised that they wouldn't. I sat where we usually sit but straight when I put my things down they move away. It's me isn't it. I move back beginning to break into tears but Deborah supports and so I stopped.

"You're Strong being able to stop those tears flowing" she says but I know the truth, I'm weak, I'm extremely fragile. I'm not strong or fearless like everyone says. I'm basically the opposite. I hate to show my actual emotions. I'm more scared than you can think of. Every night I cry into an empty darkness. Each tear drops into an endless black.

forever forgotten

I started to think that everyone that I've grown close to has been falling out of my grasp and that they were going further and further away. Especially those I met in primary, Eastwood Public. I knew so many people back then...Patrink Yap, Jason Park, Tianah Watson etc etc Some of those people now I just wanna beat the shit out of them (mostly just one) but for the others...Now, We never speak to each other, rarely look at each other when we do see each other...which is rarely.
Most of those i've grown up with, those that don't go to my high school that is.I've never had contacted them since.Which is quite sad because it makes me feel as if those that I know at the moment would soon forget me too like those in the past.

jaa

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Soz for those readers who hate people who complain bout little things but i mite have quite a lot of complaining but not like my usual posts...you'll see

She's avoiding me, he ignores me and i'm starting to have an emotional breakdown. After all that happens my only friend disappears and said that he/she/it will never contact me agian. My mother won't talk to me normally, they usually end in violents. My brother balmes me for all that has happened. Even if it is my fault...I'm sorry. Why can't I have a happy family? One that loves you to the very end. I've never experienced that. I probably never will. I hate it! How you always scream, yell, hurt us. I want a mother that will listen to me, support me, not abuse me whether what I did really was wrong and one that will love me. Maybe my birth was a huge mistake....like you've always told me.

jaa