Typical weekends

Just normal saturday and sunday studying like shit. Since my brother is doing horribly at the moment my parents keep making me do work. I have my japanese work-book due on wednesday. MInd you its thick!! I hardly do any in class so I had to do it in the weekends. I'm not sure if im happy at the moment that im 3/4 done or sad that im only 3/4 done. My eyes and head hurts...

never ending darkness

It is now that I realise my 'Friends' really are out of reach. They've turned their backs on me, just like they  promised that they wouldn't. I sat where we usually sit but straight when I put my things down they move away. It's me isn't it. I move back beginning to break into tears but Deborah supports and so I stopped.

"You're Strong being able to stop those tears flowing" she says but I know the truth, I'm weak, I'm extremely fragile. I'm not strong or fearless like everyone says. I'm basically the opposite. I hate to show my actual emotions. I'm more scared than you can think of. Every night I cry into an empty darkness. Each tear drops into an endless black.

forever forgotten

I started to think that everyone that I've grown close to has been falling out of my grasp and that they were going further and further away. Especially those I met in primary, Eastwood Public. I knew so many people back then...Patrink Yap, Jason Park, Tianah Watson etc etc Some of those people now I just wanna beat the shit out of them (mostly just one) but for the others...Now, We never speak to each other, rarely look at each other when we do see each other...which is rarely.
Most of those i've grown up with, those that don't go to my high school that is.I've never had contacted them since.Which is quite sad because it makes me feel as if those that I know at the moment would soon forget me too like those in the past.

jaa

no comment

Soz for those readers who hate people who complain bout little things but i mite have quite a lot of complaining but not like my usual posts...you'll see

She's avoiding me, he ignores me and i'm starting to have an emotional breakdown. After all that happens my only friend disappears and said that he/she/it will never contact me agian. My mother won't talk to me normally, they usually end in violents. My brother balmes me for all that has happened. Even if it is my fault...I'm sorry. Why can't I have a happy family? One that loves you to the very end. I've never experienced that. I probably never will. I hate it! How you always scream, yell, hurt us. I want a mother that will listen to me, support me, not abuse me whether what I did really was wrong and one that will love me. Maybe my birth was a huge mistake....like you've always told me.

jaa

ENG is gayy~

WHOO...
I didn't do my assignment but I survived!! I didnt even need those super crap excuses i made up in those last enteries. ^^ but then again, I have english tomoro, and friday. IM DOOOOMED!! man, thats gay. Why so many english periods...My friend Olivia made the most hilarious gothic girl i've ever seen. I mean, SERIOUSLY!! I couldnt stop laughing for like AGES!!
Tomoro is the halloween~ mufti >< most of my friends are dressing normally but ive heard from people in my class that some are going to dress really retartedly. Can't wait to see ^^.

jaa

i need a proper excuse

Well, there use to be this girl that I really hate, I won't state her name coz that would just be mean. I mean, she still might be a real asshole, jerk, idiot etc to some people but I think she is sort of alright now. That's probably coz I hardly see her now but anywayz...
Well, in the morning, my friend Chou and Leung were having a fight of which phone was better ( as in colour). Just for fun, we did a survey and asked like two or three classes and some teachers. The reult was BLACK!! but only just. Dude, Black is such an awesome colour! Don't you think?!
I have this assignment due tomoro but i cant be screwed to do it!! It doesn't go to our report which is good or else I'd be working my ass off right now. My friend Chou and I were making some excuses. The list...

• A dog snatched it and ran away to a far away place.
• As I entered the train, some asshole knocked me over and the bag fell into that gap. I had to board the train so I couldn't get it.
• I lost it
• I couldn't be screwed.
• It fell in a drain and i couldn't reach it
• Left it at home

yeah and people, don't copy me or Chou coz we're rebels and we dun give a crap bout some subjects and work that doesn't go to our report...

Yawn

Not much happened, the usual saturday. Get out of bed, do usual stuff, comp, tv, work, etc... one of the only thing that didnt happen last week was my friend Kim brought some home made cheese ckae which was pretty nice. Also its been a week and a day since I started this blog thing. Yeah, you probably already realised I'm having less things to say..

what a coincidence

Just another typical saturday. Go on the computer, then tv and study. I studied like crap today and then some family friends came and were like 'I take your family der out to dinner tonight.' Since my parents don't like being rude, they accepted it.
After eating so much, my bro and I arm wrestled and well nuh he won. Then my dad was like' I take you to get some cake' and while choosing...all of a sudden a pair of hands cover my eyes.' I was like DICKY?! NO WAY! what the hell is that dude doing here?' I pull her hands away and my dad starts laughing. YOu can sorta tell its Dicky coz of her height and so she kinda presses your nose a little as well...

jaa, sayonara

Akward way of entertaining a lonely friend

Nothing to say besides the akwardness during lunch. Since the yr 9 were at their last day of camp it was still really quiet and then we were sitting in the shade since it was extrememly hot. Then i see my friend Marianne sitting in the middle of the quad with an empty surrounding. We move towards her, I sit next to her but everyone else starts circling us and SINGING nursery rhymes. Humpty Dumpty, I'm a Little Tea-pot, that weasel one, Old McDonald, Itsy Bitsy Spider, jack and Jill and that's all i can think of. Extremely AKWARD~. During that time I had just finished a milkshake I bought at the canteen and Marianne took it, started pulling grass, filling the cup (it was quite big) and asking them whether they wanted some. Yesterday and this morning was quite sad but towards the afternoon I started feeling better. ^^

a not so typical thruday

Dunno why but i feel like im being crushed by pressure. My depressed self from year 6 and 7 is coming back and then i had a headache...I had an urge to cut again but i didnt....I dunno what to do. I was having QUITE a fun day but then i had a feeling that my friend hated me, my family avioded me...that's why im home alone at the moment and I kept getting bad comments ealier through e-mail.
I mean, my 'FRIENDS' were being all funny and stuff but i didn't even smile or laugh at any of them, usually i would...
I don't wanna be the ass i was last year though. Sitting by a wall and staring at people or the sky. The sky is emotionaless. It's either blue or grey. Sometimes i really wished i didn't exist and so i didn't have to cope with this. It happened so much last year but the wound was healed, except now the wound is re-openning. I thought i took a huge step last year and that this wouldn't happen again. I guess i was wrong...

typical wednesday...besides the home bit

Well, nothing special happened today so yeah...
At school first period, Jap. Letting my language teacher keep calling out my mistakes...
Second period, geography. Having to cope with a teacher that doesnt shut up. LIKE SERIOUSLY!! she spoke non-stop for the entire hour!!
Third Period, science. Getting nervous for maths common test next and messing up every word on my sheet. It looked like a piece of crap. Good thing i dont have to hand it in.
Fourth period, maths. After being so nervous I was like wtf this test isnt as hard as i thought. Then teacher's phone rang. Dude, she has such a lame ring tone.
Last period, english. Create a lame picture book. The pistures were hilarious. This lesson wasn't as bad as i thought but i had a headache and my head hurt like shit so it was horrible.

At home...sitting on the bench, swinging legs while i watch my dad cook. Also pissing my brother off when he was sleeping. DUDE that guys like goes 'gets up, goes to school, comes back, get some food, goes sleep, wakes up at dinner, eats, back on comp, play games, shower, goes to sleep. Thats like his time table and yet he's in NOrth Sydney Boys. That nerd.

Not much too say....

WTF is wrong with Austrlia's weather?! It's always one day extremely hot and then the next is like holy crap its freezing!! The weather here is like soo~ bad...most of the time.
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I was meant to go to swimming today but i had 2 hours and 10 minutes to do 7 worksheets. The person next to me 'Olive' was hilarious. First you see her eating everytime you see her. Next she does the music trick i do and pulls the earphone to the jumper sleeve so she could listen to music and not get busted. Then she kept mouthing the words of the songs making the teacher glare at her...SHE WAS GLARING AT ME TOO!!! then Olive went back to eating...= = yeah, not much happened then
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My friend Chou did a science test today of which she had missed yesterday. Even though i didnot study, IT WAS EXTREMELY HARD!! and then she goes "oh, it was too easy, i got soo bored." I mean what the hell?!! and she said she did not study or listen in class.
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Dun know why all of a sudden I became a Vocaloid freak again...KAGAMINE REN AND RIN ARE AWESOME!!! TWINS!!!
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Also for some reason for tech tsk and I were testing our Korean Friend her chinese...akward right?
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yeah...i dont hav much to say today...I wanna the words to be colourful ^^

I HATE MY F-EN COMPUTER

OMG!! THIS COMPUTER IS STARTING TO PISS ME OFF!!! EVERYTIME I AM HALF WAY ON DOING SOMETHING OR TALKING WITH PPL ON MSN IT SUDDENLY CRASHES!! KYAA!! as you see ppl...that is the reason i keep suddenly logging off and signing back on but i am not as mean as my brother who would suddenly kicked the monitar, and no he is not that mean to kick it to pieces...

sheesh...

STUPID TEST!! Random arm wrestle?

 Not much really happened to day. The weather was too hot and there was BASICALLY NO SHADE!! stupid Cheltenham for cutting down trees...Also i had a hard science test of which i did not study for and of course i dont listen in class. That's why it was hard. All the stuff i had memoried in the past was not needed at all!! BUt then my friend Olive (Olivia) gave me a funny way to memories how to test carbon dioxide, hydrogen and oxygen.
Carbo-milky, Hydro-pop and Oxy-glow
KORAA!! I hate science!! It's sooo~ lame.
Dun know why but after science was lunch and my brain hurt like shit (sorry bout the language) and i was dragged into AN ARM WRESTLING MATCH!! SOOME OF MY FRIENDS STRENGTH ARE LIKE CRAZY!!! But I beat most of them...which is good ^^ YATTA!!
And it was sooo~ funny i took my ipod to school tday so i could listen on the train and MArianne found out! She was like going on high coz she could rotate the menu!! YOu should of heard her laugh it was like so retarded...

LOST A CAR!! BUT I HAVE AN IPOD!!

Dad: Wake up
EmoShirou: 5 more minutes
Dad: NOW! your mother and brother were in a car accident
Emoshirou:I said 5 more....SAY WHAT!! *chucks the blanket*
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As you can probably tell in that little scene that my bro and mum were in an accident. That's the third car my mum lost in Australia and my dad hasnt lost one...sheesh take care on the road. My bro SORTA injured his neck. It wasnt a big accident though, which was good.
 It was like so early in the morning when it happened and my mum was all panicy and had to have some company besides my brother so they called the closest person which was my bro's friend, Dennis. They were like still half asleep when my bro called them and their dad were just letting their dog go outside.
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Afterwards we went to their house for like a break and they were like 'Oh crap! Bobby (the dog) is still outside!!' Its so funny, everytime my brother went near the dog it ran away from him and kept barking at him. Smart Dog.
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Now, I dont know whether to be sad that we lost a car or happy that I FINALLY GOT MY FIRST IPOD/ LISTENING DEVICE BESIDES MY PHONE!!
As you can tell im on high since i got it and my bro was like...
 "WTF! why do you get an Ipod! I want another one!"

Granny Smith Fest...

YO wassup!!
Today was the Granny Smith Festival...so basically a celebration for the Green Apple. I went to Eastwood with my friends Marianne, Valerie, Jane and Vicky to like play around. Since i was late Val, Jane and Marianne started going around first and GUESS WHAT!! O Val's first time on the lucky draw or something she won a giant stuffed shark...which she called Sharkie. Dude, the shark was awesome but she wouldnt giv it away unless you gav her 20 bucks o(T_T)o.
We went on a ride called the 'Storm' and we did this mini game on the ride. Marianne lost and they wouldnt stop calling her a loser until they completely forgot about it.
Afterwards we went to visit mine and marianne's primary school, Eastwood Public.
THE PLACE IS SO RETARTED NOW!!
THEY REPLACED THE BIG HANDBALL COURTS WITH FAKE GRASS!!! OMG!! that's like my childhood memory gone. Yes, I was a handball freak in yr 3-6. But you should of  seen Marianne, she was complaining her ass off! Seriously!! She complained non-stop! But then it was hilarious to see how much of a messy eater she was. She had soya sause all over her pants and her fingers were full on sticky. She also had like a small dot of yellow paint she was like going 'My mum's gonna kill me'.
AND IM SOOOOO~ PISSED OFF!! I SAW SOMEONE I DIDNT WANT TO SEE!!! that dude pisses me off so much!! He should go die!!
keke...

TSELENA and her random imagination

OMG!!
okay...i was meant to take bus home today but my friend Dicky said her mum would take me home so we went around  for a while. On our way back some dude said his friend liked me. Im pretty sure he was joking though but then now i feel bad for telling his to fuck off ><
okay...this is Tselena's imagination.
Guy's friend: Hey, my friend likes you
Jeshikka: Huh?
Guy's friend: I said, my friend likes you
(Jeshikka turns. Sees a tall shy handsome dude)
Handsome dude: Hi.
Jeshikka: Hi...
Handsome dude: Sorry, my friend is just joking around
Jeshikka: Oh, that's okay (starts to walk away)
Handsome dude: No! Wait, I do like you...
Jeshikka: (shocked) WHUTTT?!?! But you said your friend was just joking
Handsome dude: Well, i told my friend that i can't take my eyes off you
Jeshikka: Oh...umm...thanks?
Handsome dude: Oh, were you going to the library?
Jeshikka: Yes, i need to return something (hold's up "Fairy Tail" manga)
Handsome dude: Oh! One of my classmates really likes that manga...what's it about? Actually, I was just gonna go to the library as well. Wanna walk there together?
I mean WTF!!!

Wassup!!!

Yo people!
This is Emo Shirou and Jessica for those who already know me...From today onwards i will try my best to start this blog, kekeke. Im gonna forget someday.
Today was hilarious. My friend Marianne made my friend Dicky (Vicky) run all the way to another oval just to call her brother coz she thought was was going t miss the bus but when Dicky ran there and back the bus doors werent even open.
Stupid Jap test...It der sooooo~ hard...

okay...ill stop